Days With God..

2008-10-27T12:50:00.005+08:00

it's just funny
when i watched the news yesterday
people around the world are living in despair
especially in this country call Hungary
whole country are living not in happiness but in despair
especially during this economic crisis
average happiness index is 6.5
and its still dropping
songs titled Disastrous Sunday
written with sorrow
causing many people to commit suicide
exhibition held at Central Square
titled happiness
contrary to it
does not contain happiness at all
even a portrait full of babies smile
below each baby shows how his or her relatives dies
country full of sorrow
how to survive in it?

Quote of the day:
Psalms 28:7
The LORD is my strength, my shield from every danger. I trust in him with all my heart. He helps me, and my heart is filled with joy. I burst out in songs of thanksgiving.

2008-10-26T16:49:00.003+08:00

last dance...
reminds me of one thing...
what you gonna do the last minute of your life?
Are you going to say that
you are regretted of not being able to do things that you want
you did not treasure people around you
or you might say
"I had lived life fulfilling, its time for me to go to the other side of the world..."
what's the other side of my life I know
I am with my Father in Heaven...
what about yours?
Hell or Heaven choose one...
I bet you would choose Heaven
One question:
How to go there?
Answer:
Know the God of all Creation
"I am the Alpha and the Omega, the first and the last, the beginning and the end. To the thirsty I will give from the spring of the water of life without payment. " Says the LORD (Revelation 21:6, ESV)
He is the only way to heaven.
He is the truth and the light, and no one goes to heaven except through Him.

I like this song by the high school musical 3 casts
Now or never
this is the last time for you to do something
cuz there might not be any time left for you.

now or never
your choice...

My church conference is coming!!
5 to 7 November
Fort Canning Lodge
See you there for change that is you want to see in your life..

2008-10-04T23:12:00.005+08:00

Dreams are my reality
Wanting to make it come true
However was impossible to fulfill
Too many commitments to be made
Even times
Being knowing that
I am just building a castle among the cloud
Sometimes try to fulfill those dreams
I tend to meet with some hiccups
Leading to my failures
Or just gave up on pursuing it

God gave dreams to me
I want to make it true
But God did not show me
The process of getting it
I know He wanted me to achieve it step by step
He was there for me every step that I took
Even picked me up when I fall
Reminding me of the dreams that He gave
Right now I am still going step by step
But I know I will eventually see my dreams
Turn into a reality
With my own eyes
And I will be proud to say that
It is all God's grace
And power that He lead me
I am looking forward till the day
That a result of my labor could be seen

Right now I am just working
And waiting
For this day to come

Lord I pray
You will be there for me
In any situation
Any circumstances that may cause me to fall
Pick me up
And push me on
Till the day comes
When where you want me to be
Come to pass
Forgive me for any mistakes
Any form of discouragements
That I had made
All these I am commit to Your hands
In Jesus name I pray
Amen

2008-10-03T20:25:00.003+08:00

There was once a very rich man
He had 2 sons
One day
His younger son took the portion of his inheritance
And ran away from home
This younger son spent all the inheritance
On all the splendors and luxury items
He spent all of it until he had nothing left
Till one day he had to sleep on the streets
Because he has nothing left
No one wants him
He was too ashamed to go home
Because he had took the inheritance for all worthless things
He dare not go back
Because he was afraid that his dad will not accept him
He just did not want to go back
One day
Desperation came
He had nowhere to go
He had decided to go home
On the condition of wanting to be a slave to his father
So he slowly
Step by step
Walked back home
Finally the sight of his house was in front of him
There stood a man
Waiting patiently for his son to be back home
He saw a frail young man walking towards him
His son walking towards him
His son knelled down in front of him
Crying to ask for forgiveness
Requesting to become his slave
The man however
Called for his servant to get his ring
Ask him to change to his new clothing
Getting ready a banquet for his son return
The son was sorry for his mistake
However the man did not regard it
He was on the other hand very excited on his return
Because his son has returned
And he loved him
Even though his son had make a mistake

That's love. A Father's love.
Sometimes I make a mistake in my life
Committing sins
I felt guilty about it
As if this meant unforgiveness for me
But this one person
He loved me
Forgave my sins
Made me new again
Made me feel afresh again
To confirm His love
He sent his only beloved Son
To come to this world to be killed
And to live again
So that I can be with Him
This person is none other than my Father in heaven

Thank You Father!
For always being so loving to me
Even it would meant I walked away from You one day
You still waited patiently for my return
To clothe me once again

Thank You Father
For creating me this very day 19years ago
To be able to feel the fullness of Your love...

Thank You Father for everything

2008-09-30T20:18:00.002+08:00

Hey guys! I got my new phone and I am officially so called out of torture as being a men... I keep my post short as I do not have anything to post about... I try to think of posts, but till then, sorry for all these posts...

2008-09-19T23:16:00.002+08:00

Hey! Basically this week is the last week that I am in heaven. Next week, I will be in not so nice place. I lost my phone also, so I cannot make any contacts. Will get my phone soon...

2008-09-12T21:13:00.003+08:00

Just booked out in the evening, the course that I am attending is an enjoyable one. Quite slack and the time is somehow flexible than what I had in the evening. How I hope the course will be extended soon...

I feel so burnt out though, even with the flexible time. I have no idea what happen to me now, just that I feel that I am so far so far away from God. I just feel that I am just not excited as I was in the past. What should I do now? I am just so cold now...

2008-08-31T16:31:00.002+08:00

Yup, I changed my blog address again, after being accused by Jolene for copying her blog address (check out her blog address and min and you will know). Sorry for the inconvenience caused!

Anyways, this week being a fruitful week for me, spending time with God and for myself. I did lots of window shopping, with some shopping (as an errand). Time really flies when you have fun and now I am getting ready to climb the mountain to my camp! This week will be crazy I think, but I really pray that I still have some time for myself and for God.

By the way, Popstar Poly coming this Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Do come to this event, as there will be musical and dance drama first time by the very own drama team. Here is the video to the upcoming event:

So do come for the event!

2008-08-29T15:46:00.003+08:00

Well, as of now, I am officially empty in my wallet, my ez-link card and everything that is related to money. I wonder how am I going to survive for the next few days till I go back to camp, but anyways, just survive on instant noodles should be fine. Also, depending on God, and see what He will do. I am sure that miracles will come!

Oh ya, my camera also damaged on the process of this few weeks. So no pictures too! Another money spending case.

I went back to my schools just now (CJC and GESS) and visited the teachers. Overall, I did not think that its a fruitful trip as by the time I reached the schools, the celebration are already over and the students had already long gone home. Somemore, it will be awkward for me to crash into my teachers' lunch celebration in CJC (although they already looked kind of stupid with the pirate's theme). Back in my secondary school, the teachers were just running round and round busying working, especially I heard that the students having their prelims next week.

Anyways, HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY to all teachers out there, who sacrifice much out of their personal time to stay by the school to guide us in our studies, who also double their role as partial parent who cares about our welfare and well being of us in our everyday school life. My salute to all teachers out there! You all deserves the highest respect!

Quote:
Nahum 1:7
The Lord is good, a refuge in times of trouble. He cares for those who trust in him

For the teachers:
Ecclesisates 12:9 (about King Solomon)
Not only was the Teacher wise, but also he imparted knowledge to the people. He pondered and searched out and set in order many proverbs.

My first times...

2008-08-25T21:42:00.003+08:00

There are so many first times that I had since the start of this month. I had my army training for the first time in overseas, whereby me for the first time encounter typhoon hitting my camp area. I also for the first time tried the famous cup noodles that my instructors had always talked about. This is so much so that even my PC actually packed a carton to send back to Singapore for his own. Also, this is my first time celebrated National Day in the middle of the forest, encountering three types of weather in just one day: hot and hot, rain and rain, clod and very cold, just in one day. Also, my first time in Taiwan tried the famous ninja van's food: a vehicle that you will be looking forward to especially at hot weather.

Also, in Taiwan, for the first time I visited River of Life church, our affiliated church to HMI, and see how is it like inside, first time having a proper meal with the Taiwan church friends at a restaurant nearby. I had tried my first time riding on a bike when Joshua send me back to the hotel. In Taiwan is also the first time I visited so many theme parks and really enjoyed myself there, and staying in a hotel that should be worth more than 3 stars. Eating at fast food at overseas also being my first time as I do not want to do that in the past due to waste of money. Oh, before I forget, my first time taking the MRT in Taiwan and see how considerate Taiwanese are (Singaporean don't even think that you are nice ok? Wait till you see the Taiwanese).

Just yesterday, I had my first time taking care of little kids, and especially Jigdesh. I finally know how Serene and Joanne felt when they take them for lessons on Sunday. It will be kind of crazy for me to take them (I do not know how to handle super hyper active kids, got chance Serene teach me ok?)

And the following half of the year there is much much more first times I might be enocuntering. This includes my first time in a unit life, going to take some brand new little boys that going to turn into men and fight side by side with me in the future. Also, going to join media department and being the first time to finally exposed to visual media, rather that audio media.

I realised that all these first times does not come just like that. God really gave me so many opportunites to try out things that I did not do before, letting me to experience life in a different way, rather than just a mandane life. There are also begin to have more avenues in my life to have a chance to share the gospel if I am able to, really see how am I going to start it (beginning to feel like Moses seeing a buring bush talking to him). I really pray that this going to be one of my first times in my life to, sharing the gospel to others and really change their lives.

Are there first times in your life? How do you react upon it, by having a moment of excitment and forget about it or have a lasting impression and making a impact out of it?

Verse:
Ephesians 5:15-16
Look carefully then how you walk, not as unwise but as wise, making the best use of the time, because the days are evil.

2008-08-23T09:33:00.002+08:00

I have changed my blog address to the current one you see at the address bar. Please do make the necessary change. Thank You!

2008-08-22T19:57:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, I was a trainee. Today, I passed out. Tomorrow, I am a section commander. Time really flies. I am officially become a specialist of the Singapore Armed Forces, to lead my men in the near future. I do not know what is install for me, because its God who placed me in the current unit I am in. He showed me my posting even it was announced. I knew God has something for me in the near future, but I don't know what is it. The only thing I could do is just wait upon and pray about it. I really excited to see what God really place me in this unit for.

More chiong sua is coming up for me, and I really pray that God is with me always and I am able to lead the men under me to be good in their drills or even better than me, I expect no thing worse than me. I really pray that my men will work with me very well and anything they can always look for me, as a trustworthy friend and commander.

Verse: Philippians 4:13
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me

2008-08-17T17:01:00.003+08:00

Ok, as promised, this is a quick summary of what happen to me in Taiwan.

Typhoon strikes my training area during the first few days of my training and it was forced to cancel due to safety. After typhoon, training continues and tough times did lasts for 2 weeks there.

After tough training, we finally had the well deserved R and R in Taiwan. Here are some pictures taken for R and R. I met up with Doudou and the gang from the Taiwan church and enjoy my time having dinner with them. Other than that, I just shop and shop and shop in Taiwan..

Taiwan Trip

Quick and filtered summary of my Taiwan trip! Its very fun and next time when I go Taiwan it will not be for training, but for travel.

2008-08-16T05:15:00.001+08:00

Hey guys! Just got back from Taiwan this morning 3am. I am lazy to update the blog for now as I am too tired to do so. Anyways, I will try to give full updates by next blog entry latest tomorrow. Take care!

Glad to be back a place call Home...

2008-07-25T10:22:00.002+08:00

As I typing this post now, I am getting prepared to go to Taiwan later tonight for my final phase of training. I have mixed feelings to this training, somehow I am excited and also bored out of all the trainings. Daniel, on MSN, gave me a very good tip to make a best out of my feelings so as not to screw up my training. The rest of the day is just to get myself mentally prepared of the physically shagginess that I am going to get in Taiwan during the training. My prayer is that all of my platoon will be safe and weather is just sunny, not rainy (you know rainy weather really pull down the morale by a lot).

Yesterday, I had dinner with Kenneth, Dominic and Haohong at the market at Geylang Bahru. We had great time there and Kenneth shared his experience for his Taiwan training. Sounds fun until I really have to try it myself. After the dinner, Haohong showed me and Dominic about her project on Absolut Vodka. The presentation is nice though the words are not easily visible due to the vibrant colours of the background. But anyways, good job! Pray that she scores well in her presentation today.

This week rather seems short for me, as in the duration stayed in the camp, probably the shortest that I ever had in my whole NS life till now. Training is going to be tough and this will definitely get myself prepared for being a instructor or commander in the near future (let's just say is in 4 weeks time). Challenges may come, but hold on to God, he will always show you a way out of those challenges faced. Also, be assured that He will not put challenges beyond of what you can substain. God knows you from the inside out. Be strong, and no matter what happens, protect your faith with God and embrace your dreams.

Three weeks is gonna be long, and I am so not going to think about it. The only thing I will be thinking is the rest and recreation ahead of me as I am going to hae lots of fun there in Taipei. I will, as promised, try to update my blog as soon as possbile to keep this blog "alive". Meanwhile, good luck to all and God bless while I am in Taiwan!

Summary 101

2008-07-21T07:54:00.008+08:00

I just realized one thing: my blog post is always very very very short. That is why today I just give myself a summary of what happen to me for the past few days since Friday.

Friday:
God really showed me His miraculous power by allowing to pass my SOC with such a timing that I could not even imagine that I could do it. 9 minutes and 14 seconds is the time that I complete. With that timing, I had effectively beat some of the fitter platoon mates that I have in camp. All this must give thanks to God. If not for Him, I could not have done it. That day was also the day when all things just simply fall in place for me. I nearly could not book out on that day as my name was in the confinement list, which only allowed me to book out at 9.30am the next day. However, after clarifying with my PWO about my confinement, he realized that he had made a mistake and he allowed me to book out, an hour after the main body had booked out. Better than nothing right? My day ended at home surfing the net and enjoying myself for the first ever Friday book outafter so many weeks that I do not even know how many that I missed.

Saturday:
Afternoon, I went lunch with my cluster. Aaron could not make it last minute due to his family insisting him of having family outing for his younger brother's birthday. The other person that could not make it was Dominic. He gave the most funniest excused that I could imagine. He thought that the gathering was next Saturady instead of this one. An excused indeed cost him something. I treated the rest of my cluster with Mad Jack. He got nothing. Never mind, he will get one soon from me next time. After lunch, we went to Island Creamery to have some desserts. I could not find the photo that the youth team had took recently in June. However, the one that took it last September was still there. Funny right? I had banana split, which fills up whole of stomach and indeed the ice-cream is nice. Eugene fetched us later to church, where the youth leaders having meeting while the rest just slack around doing nothing, visibly to sleep.

Youth was fun, we sang birthday sons over and over again to Serene as it was her birthday. The topic for Youth was having a positive attitude and giving your best shot in whatever things you do. It really speaks to me as sometimes I ever wonder why was I in a vocation that I do not even like and God still placed me there. But I really tried my best, sometimes gave up, especially during field camp, and God showed up in times of my needs and alwasy be htere for me. I really have to thank Him for all he things He have done in my life.

After youth, we gave a surprise to Serene by bringing her to Tea Party, located along Sixth Avenue. We had tea there and guess who we saw? Marc! He was having fun with lots of his friends and gals. Birthday cake was served to Serene (again) as a celebration from the youth. Scone there was nice and is highly recommended by me! Some photos of the event:
We had dinner at the coffee shop nearby after the celebration (as you know the food there is too expensive for average people like us). Okay, people have their first time at the coffee shop: like Winston had his first prawn, same as Hui Ping. All of us enjoyed ourselves for the day and got home to prepare for the Sunday morning prayer.

Sunday:
Morning Prayer for me was a tragedy, I actually dozed off the last part of the meeting. I was too tired ad my head was aching the whole day long. However, the service was good as Pastor Richard talks about surrender. There are many things in my life that I have to surrender. Some things include my future, my distractions and my relationships. Through surrender, God then can work in me, like a broken vessel that can be fixed once again. I really got touched by God yesterday and really thank Him for everything in my life.

I went back home early even though it should be the day of enjoyment for Monday is an off-in-lieu. I was completely sick that day and had to go back home and had an early rest. I recovered by evening and thank God for the healing that He had blessed me. The rest of the day was with my family and my computer. I finally managed to send the Youtube video to Haohong after so many conversions of the files, by 11.30pm. Day ended just like that.

Monday:
Here I am typing this post as of this time of 9.20am. Just had breakfast with my mother. I will be heading down to my JC to collect my ugly certificate, and to purchase things needed for Taiwan end of this week.

Summary of me the past few days! Really have to thank God for everything that He has done in my life and some miracles that He performed that I could not even expect. Overall I said that my time was spent more fruitfully for the last few days as God is present for the last few days, which makes things done seems more satisfying than other days. Also, for having more time that I have means more rest that I get.

Well, last post (more or less) before I leaving for Taiwan next week. I try to update the blog during rest and recreation in Taiwan if possible, so as to not make this blog look dead. Till then, take care and God bless to all!

2008-07-18T23:50:00.000+08:00

Why by Ayaka (Lyrics)

Inside the eye, there are things that you see and cannot say.
Is there a deeper feeling beneath that heart?
Say that you have obtained everything left in this world with your hands,
Will you still be happy with that?
Why...do you look sadly at the lonely sky?
Why...show your laughing face.
Saying the right words becomes difficult.
Because of your character, I understand.
Was there something in your past?

You so often divert the distant gaze from your eyes.
Alone during the lonely nights, you held on to life tightly.
Did you find any warmth?
Why...Why did you cling to that act?
Why...Let your heart open.
The burden that you carry upon your shoulder,
Makes you able to accept power.
For certain by believing.
Ohh, yeah...
As for the free person being clumsy...
As for the free person being insecure...

Why...do you look sadly at the lonely sky?
Why...show your laughing face.
Saying the right words becomes difficult.
Because of your character, I understand
Try believing...
Why...

2008-07-18T21:43:00.004+08:00

The power of prayer... This is the thing I finally experienced it. This is my testimony of my prayer. All must give thanks to my Lord, Jesus. I finally pass my SOC, which had seemed impossible for me, since BMT. The only thing I did was just to pray and pray. Prior to the start, the only thing I could do was just to pray, and the Lord actually showed me a verse from Matthew 6, telling me not to worry. I knew it was God who was with me always. All thanks to Him that I am able to post this post. Today also seemed to be a day that everything just fall in place for me. I know that Go is with me and I just had nothing to say but just to thank Him.

Keep praying when you have a problem and God will answer you, in an amazing way, like mine!

Quote of the day:
Matthew 6:25-34
"Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. "Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."

2008-07-13T18:54:00.002+08:00

My condolence to the late Uncle Robert, who just passed away on Friday afternoon. Even though I do not really know him that well, but his passing can be seen as a great loss to the church, especially I heard that the members actually went all the way to the hospital to pray for him.

Lives are lost every corners of our lives. Do start to reach out to them before its too late.

2008-07-13T16:07:00.002+08:00

Its been two weeks since I updated my blog. No time to update last week though. In conclusion, these 2 week had been kind of bad for me. I lost a number of things during my field camp. On of the items were so serious that I had to serve confinement yesterday. Anyways, I have learn my lesson, that is to check my equipment always and secure them fully. Secure until they virtually sticks to my body.

Well, spiritually I had been at my worst these 2 weeks also. I seldom pray and I seldom read my bible. I had made an empty promise to God again. For goodness sake, God is so gracious to me, or else I had been struck by lighting for a long long time ago. I do not know what to do to fulfill my promise. I really do not want to be a good Sunday Christian, so much so that I am in a super radical church that makes me really want to make a difference. I just pray for myself to be ever hunger for more for God, and may my concentration for Him do not decrease over the week.

These has been what happen to me for the past 2weeks. May the week ahead be a better one, and no more losing of things!

2008-06-29T16:53:00.003+08:00

Today, I was so blessed by the sermon by Pastor Kelly. However, now I am on my own now. I have to be careful in every step that i take, including not falling into temptations and idolatry. I just make it simple as I have nothing much happening this weekend. I also not be so nosy by posting so much of my personal life online. Rather, my blog posts is to show how much I have grown through Christ. All the glory goes to Him and not myself.

By the way check out this blog that I just recently found out.
http://christaddicts.blogspot.com/

I am so inspired by the people who contribute to this blog and I really pray that they continue with their posts as apparently it stuck at April. Check it out!

2008-06-28T14:44:00.002+08:00

This week being a week full of ups and downs for me. I can admit myself being bad at almost everything. I lead my detail to the wrong direction and nearly wasted 20mins back tracking back. This amount of time could have my team able to leave for the navigation area early and have an early rest. Because of my mistake, my detail reached back company line at 1am instead of 10pm. I also bad in playing computer games. I got trashed by people younger than me in LAN gaming, how suck can I be?

I wonder what had happened to me for the past week and what had I done and caused so many people to be upset over me. I just want to get things right. However, things normally got out of hand and everything is just a mess.

But never mind, tomorrow is going to be a better day! I hope..

With God nothing is impossible!

2008-06-22T16:02:00.002+08:00

This week is basically the worse week that I ever had. The worse scoldings, the worse route marching and the worse financial crisis I ever had in my life. Now I more or less at the lowest valley that you can ever find in the world, or even lower. Sometimes I just want to give up. It seems to be the easiest way out. 32km route march I could have simply fall out during my 12km point saying that I have serious blisters on my foot. I could have actually just fall out after the scoldings that I got from three levels of my superior. However, somehow, people around me actually encouraged me to go further and not giving up. Tired so what? Other people also shagged out during the route march. Scoldings so what? What stays on the field stays there. People around me are really a blessings for me to move on for my life. They are important to me. I really cannot depend on my own strength. If I am, I am already not be sitting down in front of my computer typing this blog out.

Other than my friend, I also believe that God is also there for me. Pastor Michel is right, Christian life is not a smooth sailing and blessed one. There are so many trials for me to go through, and each trial I can see that breakthrough can come, especially I humbled myself before Him, showing that I am weak. When the water is stirred, something will be happened, and it will come true. Same goes to our lives, when trials come, it is the best time to see God's hand is working upon it. Do not just rely on your own strength like me last time. It will be a disaster at the end. However, trust God on doing great miracles on these situations that are coming your way. This is what I always believe. And do not be selfish when comes to helping others in need. Who knows when you need their help next time?

Faith comes action. Now I am completely trusting God on my financial for next weekend, and the situation that is coming on Monday. I do not know whether is it PC on purpose doing that, but I must try my best to perform better to recover the image that I had lost during Friday. Also, I have to rely on God's strength too!

Have a blessed week ahead! See you guys next posting on my blog!

2008-06-14T22:37:00.003+08:00

Life is very precious. I began to feel it especially when I came back from the jungle. 2 National Servicemen from different phases of training passed away on 2 consecutive days. News had reported that they had a high chance of Heart Cardiac attack. But I really think that we should really think of our lives now. Lets just say,who knows once you finish reading my post something might have happen to you? Do something meaningful. Like Kenneth says, you only have 86,400 seconds a day to spend with. Invest your time wisely. Remember few posts ago I talk about how I spend time? I still doing the same thing as I believe in this supernatural person. I trust myself believe in something and doing something that does not exist in other people's eyes. Do not let your time goes to waste, and waste your life just like that. Derek says: Time must be

Treasure
Invest
Manage
Enjoy

Life is precious, do not waste it.

For me, my advice to spend it with God, He will maximize time for you. Also, for me it is meaningful for me.

Quote:
Ecclesiasties 3:1 "For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven..."

How do you spend your time?

2008-06-08T16:11:00.003+08:00

Three more days to the mid year of 2008. Time really flies as Derek says. Army really did change every aspect of my life, being spiritual and my environment. Who would expect me, a weakling, to be able to survive through 6 months of tough training in army and still fighting strong? I also could not believe that I actually managed it and in 2 months time from now I am officially a Infantry Specialist (posting to unit or instructor to be confirmed). Spiritual wise I realized that I have become more disciplined. Somehow, I could not escape the fact that I have so much time to read my bible, cannot lie to myself that I have no time for God. But I really felt that this year spiritual level for me had increased by a little, but that is really breakthrough for me as last year I just feel that I am just stagnant there. I am really glad that God is with me always, encouraging me whenever I am down, push me up when I am down, show favor in wherever I go. I really have to thank Him for everything because He is everything in my life.

What happens the next 6 months will be a question mark in my life. However, with God by my side, nothing will go wrong for sure and I know that I am safe in His hands. Nothing is impossible for Him. By the way, He has healed my wear and tear legs, praise Him!

So what have you done and changed for the past 6 months?

2008-06-02T08:09:00.004+08:00

How great is God in your life? This has been the question posted to me for the past week. Sometimes, in circumstances where we faced, we tend to limit God's ability in resolving the situation, which in turn we screw things up. We were as if like Philip in John 6, looking into the bag, wondering how Jesus be able to feed 5 thousand people (excluding the children and women). However, be like the little boy that gave all he had to Jesus, telling Him do whatever he could for these five loaves and two fishes. Do not limit God's ability in us, do not think normally, think supernaturally. God has made us such that supernatural things is normal to us, as he is supernatural himself. Let God multiply what is inside the bag, not what you viewed inside the bag and limiting on God's ability. Do not become average, think big and act big.

With reference to Rev Jack Harris (History Maker International), and Rev Terry Mize (New Creation)

Quote: Luke 1:37: "For nothing is impossible with God."

2008-05-30T17:28:00.003+08:00

By the way, this is the translation of the song:

Sunny Day - Kazue Fujiki

What spilled out
Wasn’t a tear but a praying voice
What I looked up at
Was the sun above the clouds

I was living like I was asleep
I was always alone
Until the day I met you
I was always, always here

Even if there’s a love song
I could sing by myself
This warmth from the touch of your arms
Can’t be found alone

If I had put on a mask
Then I felt I might have forgotten
I shut away my memories
And locked them in a box

Even in that dark place
I was able to find you
Even if I can’t return
I’ll keep going farther, farther

Even if there’s a love song
That recalls loneliness
I can’t reach it alone
So I’ll walk out once more
Toward the door to tomorrow
With you…

I’ll transform sadness
Into kindness
And someday
Once I’ve set my true self free
The pain will disappear
I know it

I don’t need a love song
I can sing by myself anymore
I can’t find it alone
But with you I know
We can find a place where the sun shines
A tomorrow I’ve never seen

2008-05-30T17:15:00.002+08:00

Finally back from the two weeks confinement! Feel so great being able to gain freedom again. These two weeks been the time when I began to settle down in my new company, learning their culture, their habits, etc. Even though like most of my fellow ex company mates whom still cannot get the fact that they are here in this place that they do not desire to, they also did settle themselves down, making new friends, meet new people and new instructors.

The song that is up now is the title track for this movie titled "Accuracy of Death / Sweet Dreams". Haven't had a chance to watch this movie yet, but I do like the song a lot. Enjoy the weekend ahead for me! Pay day coming soon.... Haiz.... Broke for now. Still looking for gifts for these fellow two close friends and now I am headache. Pray that by tomorrow I get these things done and fast!

2008-05-19T17:27:00.003+08:00

Hey! Make some changes to the blog interface, so that it looks more user friendly...

1) Clock is available again.
2) Archives located below.
3) More entries posted so that you do not need to refer through archives.
4) Translation tools available.

I will not be able to post new entries within these 2 weeks, as I have a kind of confinement due to hectic timetable. Take care guys! See you all in 2 weeks time! I really misses home alot!

2008-05-18T20:58:00.002+08:00

Just watched Iron Man this afternoon, finally, with Ivan. It is a great movie and the technology featured in he movie is great! It is worth to watch it. But do stay back after the credit to see a snip peek of the movie.

This morning Pastor Richard talks about why people get burnout even though they are great. It really speaks to me as I am now been posted to become an infantry leader in another company, especially that company is the one that I do no like the most. Yesterday seems like the worse day for me as the results come out just like that, and I just was tired and upset about it. I had been burnt out. However, as I thought it through in my journey, I realized one thing: I knew that God has placed me there for a reason. If He had posted me the vocation I had been praying for, I already would be slacking off, and I will be just another useless bump in army. Some more, there had been revelations that somehow indicated me that I will be going to Taiwan. So many people around me went to Taiwan this year, just had the feeling that I will be going too. Just as I expected, I am going there for army training. Why get burn out in army, especially you cannot quit it? Just keep holding on and work hard, and continue to trust God. Also, I have now set my new purpose in the course I am in, to be a Guardsman! By being that, I have to train hard, also I have to be the best. I will work hard for it, and I know that God is with me.

Keep holding on and trust on God

2008-05-10T22:27:00.005+08:00

Yesterday, the youth went for an informal dinner at Mad Jack and Island Creamery. Here are the photos that were taken by Xin Ying, who took my camera, and also me! Photos!!

Some random dolls

Ugly Shot caputred by Xin Ying

Blue Mountain Burger.... mmm

Expensive Ice Cream???

Say Cheeze!!

2008-05-10T11:07:00.004+08:00

Memory. Some people likes it while others hate it, while some forget about it. This week been a tough week for me trying to figure out where I have gone wrong in the past that causes who am I today. If I really can go back into the past, I really want to change the past and perhaps, just start anew all over again. Just go back to the time when I was a baby till I am now. Maybe, my life might be better now? Who knows? I just do not know why there is so many problems faced in my life and really, sometimes I just want to give up. There is no use to move on, knowing that I will make situation even worse. It is even worse when I know the truth and try to rectify it. I simply do not know what to do. Lord, I know You can help me but when You are there for me? I am just waiting for You. You are the only reason I am moving on. You are the reason that I am still existed until now. Let me forget my past, Lord. Just let me start anew, is it possible for You? I just want to wake up knowing that You are there and I am afresh and all things fall in place for me. I just sick and tired of the life I am having now. Please be there Lord....

Please do not worry for me. I am fine. I will not die so easily. God has sustained my life. Do not bring up any issues to my life. Encouragement is not needed. Just do not question anything.

2008-05-04T16:08:00.002+08:00

Today, Pastor gave the sermon titled: Winners never quit, Quitters never win. He is right about us being Christians should be at the winning edge as we have God by our side. Victory is our destiny, and God wants us to live in victory and not in the losing end. If not, we are not called God's children. He gave examples of 3 people in the bible that never quit and are the models to follow: Job, Nehemiah and David the King. They did not quit even though circumstances were against them. They held on to God's promise and the stories end with victory in their hands and God bless them even more. We should have mentality of being the winner so that God can work in us to become a winner. Tell me the truth: who wants to be a loser? Nobody wants to be a loser for their life, they want to have some success in their lives. The extent for our success is determined by how far we go in our spiritual level with God. The higher the level, God will bless us even more. Also, we have to put in hard work for ourselves, so we may see results too. We cannot just sit idly waiting for God to appear in front of you in order for miracles to happen. God, off course, wants us to put in our effort to see results and not just be lazy. He hates lazy people. So, as we put in our effort in the things we are doing, God also impart his blessings into our work, so we see miraculous results.

Today, lets become a winner in whatever things we do!

2008-05-03T23:08:00.004+08:00

Today, church youths and I had BBQ party gathering. We had so much fun playing with Udon (oh, video will be uploaded soon). The food that we ate were superb, under the cooking hands of Derek, Eugene and off course the chef, Roger. I managed to take some photos. They do not contain me as I am the photographer:( But never mind, I enjoy taking pictures more than having myself in the picture. I am not that handsome to be in the picture (will destroy it more than beautifying it).

Food!!

The Gals

The Guys

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More Guys

Scenery from the BBQ pit

2008-05-03T11:35:00.000+08:00

Hey! New skin for my blog. Looks emo however I do like the layout and the graphics for the blog. Hope you like it too!

2008-05-02T21:44:00.003+08:00

Another day have just passed. I just realized one thing, time flies. 24 hours can pass just like a blink of the eye, and I just do not know what did I spend my time on for the past day. Sometimes, people think that work make their life more fulfilling, while others, entertainment is the best way to spend the time more appropriately. However, what gains you can get spending time doing those things. For me, it is just a waste of time. People then pop this question to me: "So what do you spend time on?" My answer: "Jesus".

Sometimes, people think that I am a fool wasting my time attending church events, services, when these times can be used to sleep longer hours or even going out with friends. This is especially so as they know that my church is far from my house. I mean VERY FAR. However, I just think that by doing so its more fulfilling than doing other things as I know that I am serving God in whatever time I have. There is an unknown satisfaction after attending any church service. I know that I have spent whatever limited time with God, even though there is very little. I just like serving God in whatever time I have.

This is just how I spend my time, especially today I realized I did not do anything for God and time just fly like that. How do you spend your time?

2008-05-01T22:12:00.008+08:00

Back now to blog again! Today, my siblings, Kenneth, Chris, Haohong, Daniel, Joseph, Avice and her friend, Doreen, hang out at Marina Square. We have fun playing pool, and hanging out at Food Loft for dinner. I also tried out Elisa's method of photo taking using my Sony Cybershot T10 and it turns out perfect. Here are the photos I took during our fellowship.

Snack At Yoshinoya

Say Cheese!

Looking Blur...

Pool Game Anyone?

At Pacific Coffee Company

2008-05-01T12:15:00.002+08:00

Finally, the long holiday is here! After a grueling week for training in the camp, I finally get a chance to sleep all I can, do whatever I want, within this holiday period. This time round, I really need to treasure it as after this holiday comes the tough training of 2 field camps, navigation test, SOC test. Lots of energy required for all this activity and I have yet recovered myself from the weariness I got since the UO field camp. This is also the time I can again focus myself back on the relationship with God. In camp, there is rarely a chance to spent time with God, you are either too tired to do it, or even not allowed to do so because of early lights out. Ivan taught me a few tips and tricks to memorize bible verses, that is to take it down on he small notebook. He is right to say that in army is tough to read bibles, sometimes may also be inappropriate. Thats why a small notebook with all the verses jotted down will be a great idea as you can take time to read it and is not as inappropriate at all, since you are holding on to the notebook and not a bible. In addition, it appears portable for me as I will be bringing my notebook around for army stuffs, why not God's stuffs too?

Do try it too! You will never know when it comes handy to you when you need it.

2008-04-27T16:03:00.002+08:00

Traveling has now been part of my life, being travel to my camp from home or back or even from my house to church and back. I enjoy the ride that I took because each ride to places brings me different experiences, where all things around you changes through different rides that you take. During the ride, I encounter many special moments that sometimes people might miss. This include children playing, running around. There also cases when people fought on the train, or even sometimes people displaying PDA, treating the train as their home. I have too many encounters on all the rides that I took and I am lazy to list them out one by one. Each ride is special to me and I will not bring it to waste just by sleeping through.

So when is the last time you actually look around in the bus or train that you are taking? Do look around you! And you will find that the trip is not as boring and draggy as you had thought of.

Just had clubbing in my church yesterday. Sounds strange right? Its my church having an evangelistic outreach and they theme the church into a clubbing area and I really enjoy the program that they presented to us. This is especially I had a tiring week going outfield doing trainings and had less sleep throughout. Ivan showed me this video which those new comers that came to the club for the past 2 days will view. Do enjoy the video!

Graffiti - Bridge to Live

For those who are believers, do view this video below.
WARNING: NOT FOR THE FAINT HEARTED. PLEASE VIEW IT DISCREETLY.

DISCLAIMER: The "Letter from Hell" is from our 2006 lake trip. This is intended for believers as it DOES NOT COMPLETELY DEPICT THE GOSPEL. This is not meant as a scare tactic. Watch it for what is worth, but don't condemn it before you read this disclaimer. Thanks

A Letter From Hell

I was so convicted after watching the video above. I will do my best so that people around me will not suffer. I promise myself that I will not let go of any opportunity that God has given me for the times ahead.

2008-04-19T14:10:00.001+08:00

Another weekend has come, and this time round is the shortest one I am experiencing. Yes, I will be reporting for guard duty tonight, and my Sunday is gone just like that. Really looking forward to the week after next as I know that I will not have enough rest for the next week due to lots of field camp. I just want to have fn for the moment now. Enjoying today for the moment...

2008-04-13T18:14:00.010+08:00

So fast its Sunday again. I have to book back in to camp soon. Actually I have mixed feelings about booking in. On one hand, I am happy as I am able to get out of boredom at home, especially just facing the computer. Also, I am able to find something to do rather than staying at church doing nothing (as I was not involved in anything for the moment). However, I am sad because the hard earned rest is coming to an end again. In addition, this coming week is my guard duty week, which means long weekend not going home. I am in dilemma now, not knowing whether I am happy or sad.

Right now, both my fellow peeps, Travis and Nicholas, are in their basic military training now. I just pray that they can continue uphold their spirit in Jesus and set an example to their fellow recruit mates. For Aaron, just pray good luck for his navigation exercise tomorrow. I am going to have one soon on Tuesday. Just pray that I do not get lost!

Also, most of the poly and ITE students are going to start their new term tomorrow. Good luck in their studies! Also, may God bless them with many wisdom and also may them also set an example for others to follow, rather than they following them.

Being in the military has transformed me a lot, from being an immature boy to a thinking soldier. It has also allowed me to become stronger in my physical and my mental strength, to have a mentality of not giving up. The truth is that I do not devote much time in reading the bible and prayer during army, which makes me guilty of doing that. I promised myself, and God, that I will do more for God, devote more time for God. I will do it because God has done so much for me. One encounter of Him is during my navigation test during night. He had led me to my destination, even though is just one checkpoint away from the correct one. This was especially the fact that I missed the first checkpoint by more than 150 meters away. I is all God's grace that even though my second checkpoint was wrong, the sergeant still allowed me to pass, knowing that I have a drifting tendency.

Continue to stay on fire for God.

Being a person of placing importance on friendship, I constantly had to face with isolation from friends and sometimes being outcast by them. Sometimes I want to give up, saying myself that I just another unpopular guy around the block, deserved to be ostracized by them. Just pray that, even though I have pessimist thought, continue to allow me to stay cheerful always!

2008-04-12T20:09:00.002+08:00

I have met with countless challenges throughout these 19 years of my life, being challenges in the relationship, finance, etc. I sometimes have tried to change the situation by doing it my way. However, the situation in turn worsen, and my morale going rock bottom. I also could no longer look on the bright side of my life. Depression sometimes could overwhelmed me and I could not pick myself up again.

However, God, in times of my need, came forward and pull me through. He is always there for me when I need Him. He is my faithful friend, and my Father. Dr Rob Carmen also quote from the bible Philippians 4:8 to stay in a cheerful life, and things will go in your way.

Right now, challenges may have already hitting me now, but I am trying my best to stay cheerful and continue to seek God for help. You should do it too! You will never know the results that God may give you.

2008-03-29T12:40:00.001+08:00

Stepping out from training for he first time from my new unit is a brand new experience for me. Surprisingly, I do not feel as much of missing home as much as Tekong. I think most probably because of the psychological thinking of Tekong being an island far away from Singapore an this new unit I am in is within the mainland Singapore. I hope that I can grow well there, and can survive through these 8 weeks of training and God will always be there for me when I need Him. Thank Yuo Lord for being there for me in all times!

Walking with Jesus

2008-03-22T12:02:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, walking alone is very scary, especially you do not know what is ahead of you. You just keep walking and walking, aimlessly until you eventually feel very tired. This came into my mind as I walked home from Haohong's place this morning when I missed the last bus. I just do not know what time I will reach home as my comfort zone, or just when someone would just strike me down. The only thing I have is myself, no money nor anything. The only thing I do was to place my faith in Jesus and walk the whole journey home. Even though I am a guy, but I just sometimes know that I am afraid of the dark, especially I have slight night blindness. But Jesus was there to accompany me for the journey and overcomed my fear so that I moved on, instead of waiting stupidly at the bus stop.

I am sure that most of them out there also find themselves walking aimlessly in the dark, searching for the light. Jesus is the light. He will guide you through all paths of life and lead you to all success. All you have to do is just place trust in Him and move forward. The truth is that if you just based yourself with your own knowledge and wisdom, you will find yourself falling off the cliff of the path you took. Do not let anything strikes you, Jesus will prevent anything bad from happening to you.

Yesterday, I also met this mute at the bus stop also waiting for the same bus as me, but both of us missed it. I wonder if he managed to get to his destination now, especially he had no money to take a cab, from the knowledge that he actually wanted to hitch a ride there. I just pray that he will be all fine.

I do not think that my post is good, but do reply me when you find something wrong with the comments I made!

2008-03-17T21:50:00.003+08:00

Good Friday and Easter is coming. Do remember the significance of this holiday that Jesus died on the cross for us and resurrected on the Sunday. Also, do support the coming Easter Drama happening at Turf City. It will be a grand event. See you there!

2008-03-16T22:50:00.001+08:00

Do be there for the real thing. It will be a great deal for this Easter holiday!

Date of Event : 21-23 March 2008
Fall in at 1930 Hours (21st & 22nd March)
Fall in at 1030 Hours (23rd March)

Venue : 200 Turf Club Road, 04-200 Turf City Singapore

2008-03-15T19:28:00.002+08:00

Along the way home, I encountered this Buddhist society boarded the bus. They were wearing very obvious group T-shirt, telling them that they are Buddhist. This gives me a thought, even Buddhist dare to proclaim themselves, why Christian do not do so? Even I am guilty of saying that I am one of those Christian that does not stand out from the rest. Where is the times where Acts of Christianity were rampant, especially during the times of Apostle Paul? Where are those Christians who dare themselves to stand in the middle of the streets to proclaim the gospel to the masses? I really pray that I can do this, but Lord gave me the opportunities and yet I missed it. I should be ashamed of myself of not doing that, and yet I have the daring voice of saying that I am not ashamed of the gospel. I think Lord should send lighting down over my head and strike me down.

I just pray that more Christian stand out from the rest, doing extraordinary things and impact the world. As for me, I must do what God wants me to do.

Everything

2008-03-09T16:09:00.004+08:00

I saw this skit that is very good and meaningful to me. So take this time to watch this skit and the music lyrics and the songs are part of my blog. Pause the music in order to get maximum result for the video (the music controller is at the bottom of the blog)

Lifehouse - Everything Skit

Bible Verse: 1 Corinthians 10:13 There hath no temptation taken you but such as man can bear: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation make also the way of escape, that ye may be able to endure it.

Lifehouse - Everything Lyrics

Find me here
And speak to me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That is leading me
To the place
Where I find peace again

You are the strength
That keeps me walking
You are the hope
That keeps me trusting
You are the life to my soul
You are my purpose
You're everything

And how can I
Stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me
How could it be
Any better than this

You calm the storms
You give me rest
You hold me in your hands
You won't let me fall
You steal my heart
And you take my breath away
Would you take me in
Would you take me deeper now

And how can I
Stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me
How could it be
Any better than this

And how can I
Stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me
How could it be
Any better than this

’Cause you're all I want
You’re all I need
You’re everything
Everything

You're all I want
You’re all I need
You’re everything
Everything

You're all I want
You’re all I need
You’re everything
Everything

You're all I want
You’re all I need
You’re everything
Everything

And how can I
Stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me
How could it be
Any better than this

And how can I
Stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me
How could it be
Any better, any better than this

And how can I
Stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me
How could it be
Any better than this

Would you tell me
How could it be
Any better than this

2008-03-08T20:13:00.002+08:00

Yesterday I got back my A level results. Let me just say its really not bad or too bad. I do not know what to say about my results, just that now I have to worry whether I am able to get into a local university or not. Lets just hope that I can get into NUS FASS course. Praying for the best!

2008-03-07T19:49:00.002+08:00

Time really flies. It has been 9 weeks sine I am in Tekong and in 5 days time, I am out of there. BMT is the place that I have learn a lot from both my commanders and friends. I really enjoyed this period of time, even though there are times of suffering and sadness over the course of the studies. I really going to miss this company I am in now a lot. Kestrel all the way! This company brings me joy, tears and laughter. I really hope that I will be back into this company and serve my national service when I get into command school. I now praying that I can get in there and God will be there for me in the new unit I am in in 2 weeks time.

Ala ke Pompor: Mata Kongsi!

2008-03-02T18:35:00.006+08:00

Going back to camp is always a boring thing to do for most army guys, but they have to do it. Anyways, today I had a sermon by Pastor Victor, who is both a prophet and an evangelist. His sermon really capture what God really wants for my church, which is to impact the nations around Singapore and even the world. We are not allowed to become an average Christian, however to become a radical one, which impact others. Also, God send us tribulations to transform us into a better person of Christ. I challenge myself this time to be able to go Myanmar for mission trips at least for this year, especially for me not knowing which unit or school I have been posted to. This is a challenge I make for myself and I must accomplish it.
Also, I look forward, as Pastor Victor has prophesy, Pastor Richard's book to be published.

By the way, good luck to those going to Malaysia for mission trip this Thursday and hope to see you all on Sunday to share your testimony there! Also good luck to Elisa for her exams this week too!

1.5 weeks to passing out! Pray that I will go to command school!

Anyways Pastor Victor's website is: www.iwim.org
Visit there whenever you have the time!

2008-02-29T23:16:00.002+08:00

NEW BLOG SKIN FOR MYSELF FINALLY!! NO MUSIC THOUGH BECAUSE OF THE SKIN DESIGN!! BUT DO LIKE THE SKIN!! HAHAZ!

Be a Giver!

2008-02-29T22:24:00.002+08:00

After reading the book written by Wayne Myers, I have been inspired to give all I can in my life, both financially and physically. I know that God gonna give me something in return and I saw 1 today on my way home from book out. When I walked pass the bridge near ICA building, I saw this old lady sitting by the side of the river begging for money. I have $1 so I just walked away. Somehow I just had the feeling of needing to give while walking along the streets down the road. I took all my money that I have (officially broke now, no money really) and gave it to her. She really blessed my life. Somhow she told me to love my parents, giving me this feeling that its their children were the ones who abandoned her. She blessed me somehow and I went home with a very light heart.

Somehow giving is something that no one would want to do as they feel that it is a lost to them. However, as bother Wayne says: the Lord wants us to give and He will return you greatly. Do not keep the money and help in your pocket. Give all you can. If possible, give beyond your point of ability, for God will provide you for all your need and even more if you allow yourself to give. Give is a gift, use it and not keep it. You will bless others around you for sure and you will be rewarded.

2008-02-17T19:33:00.002+08:00

I decided to post just before I booking in again at around 9pm. These 2 weeks been crazy for me, especially I had been outfield for training. It is tiring but fun as the times that we have to chit chat with the commanders. I sprain my right ankle tough during my SITEST and now my ankle is more or less alright now. I will not see the MO until the pain work up again, so I promise I will not Chao Keng for sure. Anyways. good luck to Hao Hong, Qian Hua and Xin Ying for their exams till Thursday. Hang in there ladies! I have survive worse than you so consider you ladies lucky as you do not need to serve national service.

Anyways, I pray that God will always be there for me. Also, I pray for my performance in my army life with His presence and whatever decisions I made, it is not me who is making it but is God who does it.

See You Soon!!!

2008-02-07T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!! MAY ALL BE PROSPER FOR THE YEAR AHEAD!!!

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2008-02-06T15:47:00.000+08:00

Back from the jungle is a great thing for me, especially for me as a person who likes to face the computer at all times. This 4 weeks being up and down for me in the army life. I do not know the reason why I have such an unprecedented stress level that is placed over me, causing my mood to swing at all times and I was under performing all the time. Anyways, I really pray that I can pull it through, especially with my weak physical condition that I have and I am thin, very thin. I have to train up as much as possible as I have situation test coming which I have to take a 12km roue march before starting on the test, which I nearly could not make it through for my 8km route march last week. I pray that God is always with me. I already thankful for His presence that He always showed favor in me, as such I would not get as much shit as others do, sometimes does, also that everything always goes smoothly.

There is so much things that I have missed since I enter into the next phase of my military life, being my family, and my church friends. I now have very little time to hang out with them, and every time I hang out with them, I really want to make sure that the time is fully utilized. I really hope that more time will be blessed upon me soon that I can hang out with them as much as possible.

Another thing that I have missed is my hair, kind of. My head being shaved again for the second time yesterday and my hair now is shorter than before. Now everyone knows that I am a recruit and that is stupid.

Here is the pictures that Ivan had sent me over the time that I am in the jungle. I think most of them want these: hahaz...

2008-01-25T23:40:00.000+08:00

Back from army!!! First thing is that I super happy about it. But the next thing I worry about is my upcoming field camp, which is going to be a super xiong one. Just praying that God will put me through and that I can continue to be strong under him.

Notwithstanding the Lord stood with me, and strengthened me
2 Timothy 4:17a (KJV)

I am not allowed to disclose anything about army. As such I just conclude by saying that it is full of fun, sweat, anger and blood. That is all I can say for now. Enjoy yourself while you can!

2008-01-11T21:53:00.000+08:00

Time flies. Tomorrow I will be officially serving the army for 1 years and 10 months. It is a very boring thing to do but have to do it for the sake of doing it. I just pray that God's favor is upon me at all times and the officers will have favor on me as I began this new phase of my life.

So my blog will be inactive for 2 weeks, but do stayed tuned to the new updates!

2008-01-05T19:05:00.000+08:00

For goodness sake, when I am going to be proud of my father? Once again, as I predicted, he quits his job within less than a period of 2 years. His reason: a petty small little situation that he could so called "no longer handle his temper". How can I ever mention about my father in public when asked? He is always self denial, thinking that he is always right. This thus creates arguments between me and my father all the time. Now I am thinking, how my family going to survive this financial situation once again. My grandfather was right: he is never a successful person, he just a junk in the society. Until he works till he is successful, I will never ever want to proud of him. He is just another shame in my hall of shame list: does not want to dress up, disgrace myself in front of my teachers, disgrace himself in public. How can I ever show myself up? Now I just pray that he can finally make himself success and useful, or else, he is just a jerk.

Looking back at 2007

2008-01-03T10:46:00.000+08:00

Looking back at 2007 reminds me of times that I have sorrows, fun and happiness. I remember my class being an "active" class that always being scolded by so many teachers, adding on to my form teacher whose faith is not with us. My church being small and warm as everyone goes out together as a whole big group to have lunch or dinner together. Sometimes we may even have our own outing that we stayed out together after service for the whole day for fellowship. My grandfather used to give us his stoning face that every time when my family visits him, he is always taking a nap. All the fun that I have in Taiwan with some of my classmates and new friends from JC1 that I never met before. There are also some sorrows whereby I met challenges with staying with my cousin who suffers from autism, the sudden news of my grandfather passing away and the aftermath of Taoist wake, and also challenges of having friends stayed away from you. 2007 had seen me grow spiritually and mentally, as I prepare myself for my next phase in life of serving the nation.

Yesterday, Ivan shared a testimony about an Indian lady who suffered from unknown diseases that caused her limps to swell and to a status that she may pass on anytime. However, her faith saw her having a touch from God at an exact time and date God had given her and now she is a great revivalist in India. Her faith is the kind of faith I would want to practice on. Also, in everything I do, I will always remind myself on P.G.F, acronym that Qianhua has put and everyone has been talking to me all this while, even yesterday: it is to Put God First. In everything I do now, I will rely on God, as I have now no one to rely on except for myself and God. However, if I rely on myself, I know that I will be putting myself on a path heading to doom, and the only choice I have is to rely on God for His wisdom. It is not say no choice. I have a choice to rely on my own strength for all things, however without God's presence, everything will seem impossible.

Everyone has been asking me what is my resolution for 2008. Actually is simple: to see myself grow even more spiritually and to serve God whenever I can. Mission trips are just part of the growth that I want to be in. Also, I want to see Melvin, my disciplee, to grow spiritually in God's presence, and much more than I have. I am sure that he will be someone that will do something even greater than I do in the near future. In army, I just want to serve well as part of my path, and to receive favor from the officers and my fellow bunk mates, and to bring them to salvation, at least 1 of them. I sure want to know what is in store of me from God in the future, to know His plan and purpose for me in that particular place that I am in. I finally knew why I was in CJC even though I met challenges with friendship during my first 2 months in that college. He is really good. I can imagine myself in other college or even in polythenic, where I do not have a chance to go overseas, or ever have a fixed class with classmates suffer and have fun together. Everything comes with a purpose, so do not jump into conclusion when you met with some problems!

Lastly, memories are serve as a purpose of making you prepare for the future. It is now useless to look back into 2007 like i doing now. The only thing I can do now is to appreciate the present and anticipate the future. P.G.F.!!

Happy New Year!!

2008-01-01T19:44:00.001+08:00

Happy New Year to all!!! May you have a blessed year ahead!

This year, the first thing I noticed is that I now paying adult fare for my public transport trip. It is very painful to take public transport now. Maybe I may reduced much on traveling now, unlike the previous years. Anyways, Happy New Year to all!! Blessed year ahead!

2007 last post..

2007-12-31T11:45:00.000+08:00

Last day of 2007. Time really files. Next moment I know I will be in 2008, and tomorrow is my next year. What do I have in mind for the things that is going to happen to me? I really don't know. Now I just pray that God will always be there for me, no matter what situation I am in, for His goodness endures forever and ever. My biggest challenge for next year will be juggling between church and army, so I need to be spiritually ready at all times in order not to face any backsliding situation, which I encountered few years back. Anyways, I really have no regrets for 2007 as this year really is the year that I began to know how much God can do for me and I began to understand Him more than last year. He is always faithful to me, and He is always there for me to share my joy and sorrow. Thank you God for being there for me for the past year and I pray God for You to be there for me at all times. Thank you Jesus!

Happy New Year to all and enjoy the holiday that you really deserve.

2007-12-30T21:00:00.000+08:00

We had a fun time having service at Pasir Ris Park. It is a different experience that we have previously in chalet or in church building. Hope that we have this kind of activities soon! Here are some photos taken in the park and Escape Theme Park, which we went after the service.

2007-12-29T20:20:00.000+08:00

After staying at the Three Rifles Building for 4 years, my church is finally moving. Well, today it is officially moved, with all the main furniture and props are moved to the new building at Turf City. Yippee! Turf City here I come! Anyways, the new building would not be ready so soon, as there is some touch ups to be made and major installment of the equipments are taking place during the new month, so I would not be able to see the newly built up church during my army life, until I come out from BMT in 2 weeks time and Chinese New Year period. Anyways, here are some font memories of the church at Three Rifles. Be appreciated!

2007-12-25T12:08:00.000+08:00

Just wish all of you a Merry Christmas! Do remember the true meaning of Christmas, which Christ was born in Bethlehem and saved the world through His death. Thank you Jesus!!!! And Happy Birthday to You!!!!

Some Taiwan Trip Photos

2007-12-21T11:57:00.000+08:00

Here are some photos I got from Taiwan! Just 4 for now...

Back on Blog!

2007-12-21T11:45:00.000+08:00

It is been a long time since I updated this blog. Well, I just came back from Taiwan about few days ago. I had so much fun hanging out with my classmates, especially this is the first time I was doing so in CJC. In addition, I met Hank, Doudou, Joyce, Slyvia and Allen at Shilin last Thursday and we had so much fun hanging out together and taking photos and videos. I came back with a refreshed mindset that I want to start anew with my walk with Jesus, especially before the trip so much things had happened to me and I almost could not handle it. Well, now I am back, I am all refreshed and ready to go once again! Adding to my walk with Jesus is Melvin, my new discipler! I now just praying that I can help him grow in his walk, with the fact that I am a noobie in doing that, still relying on Ivan somehow in my walk. I hope that he can grow faster than I do and start discipling others, as Ivan had saw me to do. I placing trust on him with God, knowing that he would do well!

Oh, I was also happy during the trip, as I bought myself a new bag and a new pair of shoes. Not forgetting that I had managed, for the first time, be able to get autographs from SHE and the gang in their promotion for the new and upcoming drama Fighting Bulls. I so glad that I could be able to go on this trip that I had never thought of going and this country may be the next country I would be targeting for my missions trip. God please open this door for me!

So now I am back from Taiwan. Next, my new walk with Jesus and Christmas to celebrate His birth!

Merry Christmas to all!!! Enjoy the holiday!

Heart of Worship

2007-12-09T20:26:00.001+08:00

Worship, it is a form of adoration that we can express to God. Worship is not just standing at the altar jumping and singing, and also just crying as the songs are playing. Worship is also praising God for everything that we had done in every part of our lives. It includes giving praise to him for all the achievements you have received, for helping you through tough times, and even just tiny little things you do like eating. Worship can be in any form. However, worshiping is one aspect, the attitude towards it also must be right. If you set yourself at the right attitude towards worship, you will receive something from God that you will never even expect it, like visions or even revelation. Wrong attitude means no breakthrough, simple theology. This thus also shows that prayer is also part of worship process that we have to go through. We need to develop a strong prayer life such that what situations may come, breakthrough will follow. Therefore, pray up always so that no situations may tumble you down, because you already have a foundation to support you from falling. It is like an extra pillar, a big one, being built within the building to give that extra support.

Set yourself in a right heart of worship, and you may see results that you may not even expect in the first place!

2007-12-04T08:29:00.000+08:00

Actually looking back at the past week I had been through, and i realized that this few weeks had so much things that had happened. One by one came with either shocked or even some unprepared. But I also realized that God is always there for me throughout these trials that I have and I really want to thank Him for being present in me to help me out in many occasions. One of which was my waiter job (thinking of quitting). God really showed His presence, for the tables i served were all so gracious and are in favor of what I want. This was in contrast of the other person I was working with, with that table he served were full of people trying to toy the waiter and making him tired of serving hem. God also present me a man giving instructions during my grandfather's wake that I need not have to hold a joss stick, neither to participate in the rituals, just observed. God is so gracious to me, and I really cannot imagine myself in those situations if He is not there with me. The night before the wake starts, I already had packed my passport, saving account books into my bag just in case I had been chased out due to my stand. My advice to all is that no matter what situations may come, do not fret, let God take control of what you are doing. Who knows? You will find yourself actually passed the situations without even noticing it. Also, do not just pray about the situations, act in that situation, so that God will arrange it for you. I pray and fasted the night before the wake, and I saw a miracle from God. Trust in Him, and He will lead you a way out, just like Moses trusting the Lord and brought all 2 million Israelites out of Egypt to the Promised Land (Exodus, Deuteronomy). Anyways, I pray that God's grace will continue to be there for me to look for, and that this Friday will have the same encounter in my job that I have the first time I worked.

Trust in God. Amen!

2007-12-01T12:36:00.000+08:00

I think by now most of them have heard about the news. My grandfather had just passed away on Thursday after several internal organs went into failure and the life supporting machine could not hold him any longer. Anyways, now he is out of the pain he had been suffering throughout his lifetime. But the greatest regret for me was not to share the gospel while he was on his deathbed. I was all alone with him, and yet I did not talk anything about Christ. My fear had overcame me. Lord, remove any fear from me, and make me like Apostle Paul and Peter, who did not fear of death, and share the gospel about You throughout the nations. I do not want to be a coward anymore. I live my life for God and I have to act according to what God wants me to do.

~~Anyways, the wake will be held at Marsiling Rise Blk130 Void Deck. For Christians, you are advised not to come for the following times: after 7pm, as this is the time when the rituals are going on.~~

The funeral is already over. Thank you for those who were there to visit. Your presence is much appreciated.

Forever going to miss my grandfather. Rest in peace!

2007-11-23T14:40:00.000+08:00

How many bread did I managed to get during a sale in the confectionery? None! That's the conclusion I had made the day before while trying to get myself some good offer. The aunties there were so cheap stake. They stood by the front of the bread dispense area and once the bread is out of the oven, they immediately snatch it to their tray. This is to a large extent that their bread were defaced after they took it. Sometimes how I hoped that Singaporean would be numb to this kind of temptation, to get themselves cheap offers. One must consider this factor: kaisuim is a serious trend that is happening around Singapore. This must be stopped. By doing so, they are destroying the image that the government had "built" over the years to established Singapore as a courteous city that would allow forgeiners to get good impressions about us.

Anyways, that is the conclusion I can get from the fiasco. This week being a tiring week for me and I would be working tonight as a waiter in restuarant. This had added to my tireness that had been accumulated since the beginning of the year. I now just praying that I would not be tired out and my body would not break down. If not, I will be really sick.

Photos for HMI Conference

2007-11-18T21:12:00.000+08:00

This is the time I should upload the photos for the HMI conference. Sorry for the delay!!

The rest of the photos are uploaded at my Facebook. Link will be available soon.

Christmas?

2007-11-18T20:00:00.001+08:00

"For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him" John 3:17. Who had noticed that verse when you all shopped at Vivo City during this Christmas season? Christmas has began losing its original purpose of celebrating the birth of Son of God, Jesus Christ. It has now become a season when people simply spend this season engaging with lots of sales happening, especially with the upcoming Great Singapore Sale. Some even went to that extent that they deny the Son of God being born on that day. Come on! What has the world gone into now? This world has seemed that they had forgotten who had saved them from the sins that we committed. At least Jesus in the past got recognised, who got so hated by all the priests, and in the end had to crucify Him on the cross. "For God so loved the world that he sent His one and only Son to the earth that whoever believes in Him shall not perish and live an eternal live" John 3:16. This basic movement by God was such that He does not want to see us one by one being sent to the gates of hell and receive the eternal punishment. Yet the world denies its believes and began coming out with all sorts of nonsenses that trying to grip human minds back to the worldly matters. Some examples include 'Da Vinci Codes', 'Harry Potter' and even the upcoming movie 'The Golden Compass'. All these movies and books had gripped the minds of people and got them into the devil's hands of eternal suffering. However, who have actually read the Bible? Even some Christians read the above books much more than their Bible. This is crazy. How I hope that God should have done what He had done to Noah's times! This is how gracious is Him, sending His son to die for us as the perfect sacrifice on the Tabernacle. How great is His love! Christians should ought to be ashamed of themselves not having enough time to spent with this living God that we have in our lives. Blessed by His love!

As for me, I am now doing my very best to spent time with Him and I do not want to miss this chance of having the great time with my Best Friend, Daddy.

Choices..

2007-11-16T20:40:00.001+08:00

Today, i want to talk about choices. Life's full of choices, don't we? Everyday of our life we have to make choices, being what to eat, what to wear, etc. There are simply too many choices that we need to make. However, do we place our choices in front of God to let Him decided for us? I admit that I did not do it most of the time. Sometimes, we miss out with the critical moments due to our own foolishness. We often thought that we can do better on our own, and when we met with setbacks,, we wept before God and regretting for what we have done. But God is so gracious that He gave us chances over and over again without grambling. He already done so by not destroying Adam and Eve when they had ate the fruit of all knowledge. Choices are a variety in our lives, but they will have an impact over the results that we may be looking for. Again, due to Adam's choice of eatting the apple, he had made us born sinners. Moses had made a choice not to come close to burning bush, but do think of the consequences: every Isrealites would still be suffering in Egypt. Bringing to a closer moment, American had a choice not to interfere in the Afghanistan war by contributing money to support Mujaheedin, which resulted now in the tragic September 11 incident. We have so many choice in our lives to make, do make it wisely. Do not regret of the choice we had made. The best if you had placed these choices of your life to God for decision making. He will show the best choice that you can ever think of, even if they are looking strange to you during the process of fulfilling those choices. The clairty will be there as you continue to depend on the Lord our God, our Saviour.

Finally!!!

2007-11-15T21:28:00.000+08:00

Yup, I am back to blog now. Anyways I can finally kind of put down my burden on the A levels. Time to relax! Anyways, I will be having some inspiration blog posts coming up soon. Do look out for it. If not, this will be my blog post. (Weilong is going to kill me!! Argh!!)

I am happy to be back for now. Now waiting to work and going to Taiwan! Thanks to those who prayed for me for my exams!

Anyways, do like this new skin. I uploading a new song soon. Take care!

Themis' Teasers: Camouflage

2007-11-11T20:57:00.000+08:00

Here's one for you:
What do you see when you place a chameleon in a room full of mirrors?

Themis' Teasers: Temperature

2007-11-08T10:42:00.000+08:00

Here's one for you:

If the weather report says that tomorrow will be twice as cold as today, and today the temperature today is 0 degree Celsius. What will be tomorrow's temperature?

History Maker Conference..

2007-11-03T19:57:00.000+08:00

Overall, this conference rocks! I got so much to say, but i just summarise by a little. I glad to know many people from all across Asia continents, including the pastors form the respective countries, and also many friends, particularly those from Taiwan team and the Japan team. I had a great time hanging out with them! Also, have to thank Chen for treating us to roti prata this morning. It costs a bomb for him, yet he just treat us all. Thank You!! I just cannot wait to see them this December when I am going to Taiwan to meet them up!

This conference is the only one I had attended this year. Next year, I had already pledged myself to go Japan and Mynamr, not forgotting the Singapore conference. Praying for God's grace for me on these trips, especially I will be in army then.

Photos most probably will be uploaded on MySpace soon, real soon...

51st post...

2007-10-29T22:02:00.000+08:00

New addition to my blog:
1) The Altar and The Door by Casting Crowns
2) Clock Updated!

I particularly like this song because the words are really related much to my life. I hope you like to enjoy this song!

2007-10-29T21:29:00.000+08:00

Overall, the day for me is shed! I had being studying for so many hours. Now is finally the time for me to rest. By the way, the verse is "Go, eat your bread with joy, and drink your wine with a merry heart, for God has already approved what you do." (Ecclesiastes 9:7) Hope that tomorrow will be a better day!

2007-10-29T12:43:00.000+08:00

Yup, back blogging for now. I now taking a break from all the studies I have in school. Anyway, my Maths teacher happens to be sick today and I can't have my consultation with her today. I have to pray for health! She has been sick for these few eeks, especially from all the pressures that we JC2 students have put on her, and also all her household matters she has to handle too.

This morning was quite good for me as I received the Word from the Lord that I need not to be worry about my matter as He is already in the matter. It is in Ecclesiasties if I am not wrong. I will get the verse up once I am back at home.

Yesterday was a very specail day I had. I got touched by God throughout the day, whether from it was a nitty gritty stuffs to some important matters such as my exams, He was there to comfort me. For the first time after having for so long of a dry Christian season, I moved to tears during my morning prayer, somehow that God was there for me. Same goes during the worship service and D-Talks prayer, I somehow being easily moved to tears and was glad that I am back at His presence. This is especially for the critical period I am in now. Rev. Cecil shared his sermon about Holy Spirit and how It can help us in our daily lives. His sermon was great that somehow most of them was realted to me, especailly when he was talking about the issue on loving ur enemy. Somehow then I was thinking of my missing cousin and wonder how is he now.

After the service, I had requested special prayer from Rev. Cecil. He gave me encouraging words and was I was slain, I somehow felt a sense of peaceful, knowing that God is in the matter for me now.

I was in church having fun with the Mikala and Sherry in the GK room, together with Kell, Melvin, Nicholas and Serene. We had fun playing passing of balls and concentration games. I can feel the sense of hyperness withing the kids, and me as half adult have to entertain their hyperness. Its tiring though but enjoyable.

I went dinner with Weilong, Serene and Haohong at the Long John Silver, when we studied there till 7.30pm, when we left for Plaza Singapura to search for gifts of Haohong for Azjuan. We could not find any gifts there but we had more food there because of the amount that we have in Long John was insufficient.

We left Plaza Singapura at about 9pm, when we headed home. That about ends the day for me and I was glad that I have such a spirit filled day yesterday.

Can't wait for the conference to come! It is almost 48hours to the start of the conference! Even though I am attending only the night session due to my studies, I know that God will not for short for His Glory on me. Right, God?

Conference will be held at Fort Canning Lodge (behind Park Mall), 7.30pm to 9.30pm. Do come and experience the power of God!

By the way, I aware that people are discussing who is the girl that I like. Please stop guessing. It does no good to me and maybe also to the people affected. This is just my confessions.

An Update..

2007-10-27T10:27:00.000+08:00

This whole week just being studying and studying. I know its kind of no life, however I just had to hold on for 3 more weeks. I just felt that I am lucky because of my exam scheduel which ends the earliest at 16Nov, whereas others had theirs ending 2 weeks later. I am also lucky to have God with me at all times, by my side encouraging me, helping me, and increase my visions for getting excellent results for my As.

Yesterday I went morning prayer, together with Ivan, Serene and Rene. For me, it was kind of special moments that I had more time with God, even though I was tired and got dozed off a few times. However, I must take this time to thank Him and to pray for others, like what I like to do every night. Believe in Him and He will answer for you!

After morning prayer, we went for lunch together at Lao Zhong Zhong. All of us had fun there, and also at church when we faced ourselves with our books, our BIGGEST enemy!! I left the church at about 6.30pm, when I left for Bras Basah Complex to purchase some stationary before heading to Rochor Market to purchase my dinner.

Anyways, this dinner I had was the most expensive dinner I had ever purchased. The nasi lemak I had cost me $3, with just long beans, chicken wings and 3 small fish nuggets. It was no really worth the cost for that breakfast. I am not going to say which stall it is but it was the stall beside a fried carrot cake and opposite that of a fish head soup. It is located at the 2nd row of stalls from the entrance directly from Bugis Market. The dinner I had was also not say that delicious anyways.

Anyways, I just stop here. It is just 5 days away from Conference and I am so excited to be there, even though just attending the night conference itself. Also, that day is my General Paper, 1st day of A Level. Trusting God for the best!

Just an Update...

2007-10-26T06:54:00.000+08:00

Bascially this few days I had been mugging for the exams. The progress was good, especially for my Science subjects, which I drill a lot on it. Even today, I had planned to do more Chemistry after the morning prayer. Anyways, Wednesday Pastor shared a very good sermon about visions that we would get a grip on our visions when we hold on to it. Visions would have a dry season, which prepares you for the vision itself. The sermon was very meaningful as this is the period that I had to score well for my exams, but this few weeks I just had to give up all the funs that I had, just ti study, in order to score well for the exam.

I got encouraged by many, thanks to all! I will study hard and score well for A Levels! So do not worry about me!

By the way, yesterday I was studying at Potong Pasir McDonald's. I had studied there for hours on Chemistry. Do not tell me that some one studying there too, because I had already surveillence the place before I start studying, which I know the only person I knew was sitting beside me, my fellow fencing friend.

Thank you for the encouragement and prayer you all had for me!

Tuesday....

2007-10-23T21:16:00.001+08:00

Today's morning prayer was quite encouraging for me. This was especially when pastor gave us this quote for us to consider Ephesians 1:3"Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in Christ with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places". He was right: we must be able to move on or else we will be left out in the move. He also questioned us whether we are ready for the move of God that comes so fast. This really tells me a thing: I must continue to move in Christ no matter how dry I was with Christ, especially in places such as the National Service.

After prayer me and Ivan went to Mac Potong Pasir to study. We met Rene on the way there and she joined us for studies. By the way: Good Luck Rene for your studies!! Same goes to others who are studying for both As and Os. This is the final lap for all, move on!! Rene left early because her paper starts at 2.30pm, while me and Ivan were chatting about politics, modern world. I got a lot of useful information from him, which maybe useful for my General Paper.

Ivan left at 3pm as he needed to get to Mr Brown's studio for recordings. I stayed there to study till 6.30pm, which I decided to go Vivo City to get refreshed. I also had in mind where I was going, thus going to Vivo was not somehow the time i would get lost.

I went to PageOne for a while as I like to shop at a bookstore. I like the shop there. I stayed there for a while before I headed back home.

Today had been a great day for me. Pray that tomorrow will be a great day for me!

Additional to My Blog

2007-10-23T08:28:00.000+08:00

Well, these are NEW additions to my blog:

1) Bible Verse for the Day brought to you by Bible Gateway
2) Clock for those do not have clock on their desktop brought to you by ClockLink

Just some gadgets to make you more knowing about what you are doing right now...

Bible Quotes of the Day for the Discouraged...

2007-10-23T08:12:00.000+08:00

Becca was really great when she gave me this quote of the day. I should use it for today:

Psalm 37:4 "Delight yourself in the LORD and He will give you the desires of your heart"

Have a great day ahead in Christ!!

Monday...

2007-10-22T21:18:00.000+08:00

Summary for today: I have a great time hanging out with my discipler Ivan (yes the crazy guy you all know...), especially the long hours of maths we had. We went for dinner and had more snacks after dinner. We went around Orchard Road to shop. Just hd really great time hanging out with him. We also will be meeting each other tomorrow for morning prayer. Just pray that tomorrow will be a great day!

Thank You

2007-10-22T13:30:00.000+08:00

By the way, I just want to say thank you to Qianhua and Serene for their T-Shirt as my birthday gift! I like it a lot, adding to my boring wardrobe that I have.

Verse for the day for me:
"Wait for the Lord;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the Lord."
Psalm 27:14

Thank you Lord! Saw it on the school plasma screens!

Reflecting about myself...

2007-10-22T07:45:00.000+08:00

Here am I, walking towards Pastor Richard, receiving the Certificate of Membership for completing the HMI Discipleship programme. The truth is: I am proud of being the receiver of the cert. However, the fact is: Am I ready for it?

In fact. these few weeks, I was in the stage of having stagnated Christian lifetyle: netihter going up or down; just there. I had forced myself to being searching for God's heart and what He really wants of me. But I couldn't. Nothing miracle happen to me, just had Pastor Richard had warned. I just do not know what to do next.

Pastor's speech was quite useful for me, especially for myself. He talked about the state of our mind. What strucks me the most was when he talks about the fact that I have to change my mind before I could see miracles. Indeed, my mind was full of doubts. I always prayed that my friends and I will be healed in the name of Jesus, however, I was in a doubt stage whether is it true or not. Pastor pointed out the important reason for my stagnated Christian lifestyle. However, the truth is, I still felt stagnated. Nothing had motivated me more to pursue more for God. I had reached the ceiling of the wall that I could not go any further up anymore.

I just want to give up sometimes, but God was so fatihful to me. Looking back of what He had done of me, it was so unbelievable. The NAPFA test, my Prelim results, my Taiwan trip expenses, I did not expect the unexpected to happen to me. I could not just give up and go back to my old lifestyle, where everything was so bad to me: the neglection of my classmates, being bullied most of the time. I did not want this to happen to me.

Maybe, it was my exams stress. My A levels was in about a weeks time from now. God had put so many words of encouragement in my life. "Cast your burden on the Lord, and he will sustain you: he will never permit the righteous to be moved"(Psalms 55:22), "why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you in turmoil within me? Hope in God; for I shall again priase him, my salvation and my God"(Psalm 42:11), and so many more phrases. I had indeed being encouraged somehow, but it was temporal, which afterwards I was back in my worries about God's absence in my life.

Ivan had encouraged me to move on in my dryness stage and continue to seek for breakthrough in my life. He used a famous man in the past as an example that he had gone through at least 3 months of stagnation and almost wanted to give up. He had questioned the Lord about His absence in his life and the angle appeared to him and said that the angle was in his room for the past three months and observed his faithfulness towards the Lord, afterwhich he was a famous Christian miracle worker in history.

Now, as for me, I just waiting for my time to come. Someday, I will break the ceiling that I had reached and see new and better breakthrough. "God does not and will not fail me" I just have to keep this believe in my mind, despite the numerous doubts that I have in my mind, especially now.

As for relationship wise, for me, to be frank, yes I did like a grl in my church. But Pastor was right, I being immature in my relationship yet, and I did not want to be involved in any relationship especially during this time of my trial and my stangnation of my life: which Pastor had said, the worse time to be involved in realtionship. i had being at my worse of having almost a relationship in the past, which I felt now it was very stupid for me in the first place. I also did not really want to get involved in realtionship as in the first place it would destroy friendship that we had built and also affecting people around me. As for now, focus on my studies and pursue for God. Relationship: God will settle for me, unless I had the intention to be single for my life.

Praying for the best and hoping for breakthrough. Dependent on the Holy Spirit to be the lighthouse of my lost ship.

By the way, take note of the email your friend sent you about the goodness of life, it really motivates me.

Few Days...

2007-10-20T17:45:00.000+08:00

These few days being busy studying and was out the whole day that I could not be able to type a post at all. Yup, basically I just being studying, got some progress at least. Just really pray that this week my drilling session for my Chemistry and Mathematics session will be a fruitful one. These two subjects are the first few papers for my A levels, no choice but have to tackle them first. Praying for the best!

Also being lucky that for the past week, every alternative days I have someone to accompany me for dinner, think my prayer does answered, as I always said that I was quite alone myself. Really have to thank God for that. Now looking for time to have a dinner date with Ivan, which I hope is feasible and I do promised that I will not be as playful as I was for the past year.

Anyways. looking forward to my Taiwan trip and HMI conference! And my enlistment for National Service has being confirmed. Nicholas, I am going in months before you at 12Jan2008. Is it a good thing or a bad thing? Just pray that I will receive favours in my fellow squad mates eyes and also the officer and not be the one getting all the blanket party at night!

Well, pens down for now, getting ready to have a heart to heart talk with Pastor Richard which I received his birthday card this morning. So funny.

Anti Drugs Poster??

2007-10-18T20:47:00.000+08:00

Just something stupid that came across me this evening. For those who came across my school bus stop you would see all the clubs' advertisement posted there. Just now when I walked out of school, I saw them posting a brand new advertisement of the MOS, just that they added new element, the jail element. Below writes: If you play with drugs, you pay for it. I just find that stupid, why not the society in the first place post the anti drugs advertisement instead of posting something that was appealing to students but not the principal advertisement. Just as I thought this was the only one, I saw the same method is being used at the Bras Basah Complex bus stop along Victoria Street. This one is even special, a silver handcaff with the advertisement of a Italian jewellery brand. I just find it really funny. Do check it out. You would not miss it, as the advertisement is the ultra big one posted withing the bus stop.

A summary...

2007-10-18T08:07:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I had went through the baptism of the Holy Spirit. What I felt yesterday was I was constraint in my movement and cried also. However, finally learnt how to speak in tongues the proper way. I had learnt tongues in another church in an unconventional way which is not really suitable.

Anyways after the ministry, Chris, HaoHong, Becca, Joseph, Griffin, Zen and I went to a prata shop along Serangoon Road opposite Bendemeer Primary School. They serve really nice murtabak there, and also sweet paper prata. The mutton soup isa must have, not too spicy and is nice. Thinking about food now makes me hungry now as I have not had my breakfast yet. Anyways, waiting for Ivan to bring Becca to have more prata and Milo Dinosuar and have time hanging out with them. It was so time me and Ivan hung out together(just remembered it was just Sunday), but is really quite rare because both of us have to focus much on studies. But it is really God's grace that I actually got to have close relationship with him, rather than say hi or bye. I must thank God for that.

Yup, thats about it for yesterday. Studying continues today.

Counting Down: 13 Days to HMI Singapore conference cum first A Level Paper: General Paper!!!

New Skin..

2007-10-17T07:06:00.000+08:00

Yup, I just spent about 30minutes updating my blog skin, and gave it a whole new look! Looks cute but a little messy due to the font size and layout, do feedback about it! Thanks! I will make necessary changes if applicable.

By the way, Wei Long, Your Blog Skin Looks Familiar... Somehow... Go check out some of the links, especially the church's ones... hahaz...

Wednesday...

2007-10-17T06:28:00.000+08:00

I just post this post early in the morning as I ghyave school later at 8am and I doubted that I have time for a post later at night. Anyways, I'm fasting today to prepare myself for the baptism of the Holy Spirit. I really look forward to that and see how God is doing wonders to my life. I also really pray that God does not disappoint me, as I had already being feeling dry for the past weeks and I am sick and tired of it. I do not want to live life normally, I want to live life like a Hisotry Maker!!

Now I am praying for changes in my life, as a brand new Christian from tonight! Stay fire up for God!!

Tuesday....

2007-10-16T08:42:00.000+08:00

Another day of revision, anyways just in about an hours time or so will be my Chemistry Paper 1 Mock Exam. I did not study for it, just hope that the questions won't be that tough, or at least during my bus journey just study a bit. Being studying too much, getting sane soon, so please do not irritate me whenever you like to do so, cause I will get real mad at you. Right now, I'm backing up all my pictures and documents just in case my computer crash, which I hope it wouldn't. Thats about it for today, I think... If something special happening like yesterday I will post about it.

Addition to my blog:
1)Rene's Blog Address
2)Myspace Profile
3)Countdown to HMI Conference and my A level Exams
4)New Music, new lyrics: Planet Shakers: I'm Yours

Coming soon for my blog: A Major Changeover of my blog... Do look out for that!

Studying...

2007-10-15T21:16:00.000+08:00

Today basically starts my intensive revision week. I started studying until 5pm, when the library closed. I proceeded to Lido tower and continued my studies there. I did not know whether it was a coincidence or otherwise, I had the feeling to go there to study, and there I met Daniel and Derek, where we had dinner together before they catched up a movie later. Just had a little fun having their company, however overall just had to continue to study until 16 Novemeber comes to an end.

A Very Long Blog Post

2007-10-15T08:54:00.000+08:00

Finally, after a few days after the last posts, I finally be able to update my blog. Here's what happen to me past few days:

On Friday afternoon, my school had their open house for the secondary student to visit. I did not get a chance to visit the place even though I feel that I like to. To make up for this time, I decided to study at Toa Payoh instead of just wasting my time at the open house looking around doing nothing at all. During my studies at Mos Burger. I saw Hui Fang and her classmates. They are really quite different, especially how Hui Fang greeted me. So funny. I was there to study all the way till 6pm, when I met Serene to meet the rest at Clementi. We both had decided to take a bus to Clementi, which is a wrong choice apparently. The trip took us 45minutes or so, being stuck at the jams along Bukit Timah Road, and also somewhere near the Clementi Area. It was so frustrating as the journey time gets longer and longer, and so our meeting time approaching nearer and nearer.

We met the rest at about 7pm, 15 minutes later than we suppose to meet. There Chris drove all of us to his place. His home, was simply, cool!!! All the arrangements of the room, the specially made Japanese tea room. I felt that it was so cosy.

We had pizza at his house. It was from Rocky's Pizza House. The pizza is so delicious! Especially that their pizza was affordable despite its huge 20" size. We had Hawaiian pizza, Boston pizza, Vegetarian Pizza. It was so filling!Also, when we had our dinner, we also had chat session with Eddie over at Japan, who has only pumpkin, tomato and rice as his dinner. But his dinner looks real nice, especially how they prepared the food such that it makes it look appetizing. We also had a surprised video call session with him, when Chris told us about his PC has a web cam and a microphone. We had nice chat over the video cam, and Eddie sang us so many songs, through the web cam. He also showed the ladies there how he normally shaved, which guys: this is a guys' thing, it was suppose to be private. Also, there goes his Gothic, after 3 weeks of leaving it. In addition to that, he showed us his house environment and his breakfast, which Singapore also sells the same brand of cereal too! Have yet to try that though, but I will try that soon, since it's Eddie recommended it. The worship team joined us at a later time about 9 plus, when we continued to have video call session with Eddie online, and they had their dinner with the pizza. The funniest thing is that when Ivan and Eddie met, they are crazy!! I cannot wait to see them getting mad at the conference soon! Since Eddie had already warned me that he is going to be crazy at the conference. All of us watched 2 movies, namely Stomp the Yard and Too Fast Too Furious: Tokyo Drift. Tokyo Drift was funny, with Ivan's comment about the movie, saying that the cars were designed to go curves and not straight, even how straight the road is. Becca and I were laughing all along during the course of the movie. We joked about what would happen to us after the movies. Eugene and Josiah showed us we would be cripples dancing on the streets, showing us some crazy stunts. Tokyo Drift they mentioned drifting along the highways. They left Chris' house at about 2am, when HaoHong, Zen and I were preparing ourselves for the stay over at his house.

The sleep was so cosy, the sofa was so soft. I like sleeping on his couch. It was so comfortable. It was also easy for me to have quiet time with the Lord and praying.

The next morning, we hanged around his house doing our own stuffs, including more readings. We stayed there until afternoon, when our stomach began to groan for food, when we decided to head out for lunch. The location, Teochew Porridge store opposite Beauty World Shopping Center. They serve really nice ingredients there and also they are affordable. You can eat like a king with below $20. It was so filling! We then headed to Popular at Bukit Timah Shopping Center where HaoHong had to purchase her stationary for crafts for the GK kids on Sunday. We also shopped in Fairprice Finest, where we got more food. After which we head back to Chris' House.

We had more food in his house, including toast made from the corn bread purchased from the supermarket, recommended with peanut butter, chocolate cake purchased by Zen the previous day and cereals for the ladies. We ate a lot for the day, right from the start in the morning. I wonder where our food had gone to.

We did our own stuffs again in his house for a while, when we had to pack up and leave for church, where Chris had his Youth Leader's meeting then and we continued our GK crafts and the GK room, until Youth meeting starts.

The Youth meeting was fun, we had more challenges that requires teamwork and perseverance. 1 thing I learnt from these activities: Are we able to rise up to the call and take up these challenges? Really, all of us do face challenges in our lives, whether being in school or even at the workplace. How are we able to handle such challenges, did we approach God for help, or we just handle our own, which would eventually lead to destructions.

After the meet, Me, Weilong and HaoHong had our dinner at Geylang Bahru Market where we had a nice chat there, before we headed home and end our day.

The next morning we had church service. The worship and sermon were really good. Both had convicted me that I had did nothing great for this year and I had to do more things significantly next year. In addition, I no longer wanted to look negatively in myself, instead just being positive and God will do miracles in my life. Phase 3 lessons was also a good one, with Depak sharing his testimony, when Pastor Richard happened to enter the room. His testimony is strong, and I really pray that I would also have the same testimony as he do. Pastor during his Phase 3 lessons, shared about the visions of the church and the history of the church, which is quite significant for me and the rest as we were part of the move to a new height for a church, which Pastor had not even thought of in the first place.

After the Phase 3 lessons, the group of us went Marina Square to have our dinner.Me, Becca, Ivan and Joseph had a great time chatting at our table, talking to all random stuffs. We also hang out at the Esplanade Roof Garden, when we enjoyed the scene there, and they took a lot of emo photos with my camera.

After some of them left for home, my siblings,Joseph, Becca, Ivan and I had for a stroll along Singapore river, where we reached the heart of CBD area. We also had a nice chat along the banks of the river until it was late and we had to head home.
These 3 days were very fun to me. Even though it was fun, Ivan had warned me not to neglect much on studies, which I am starting a real study week today, which I will study till late night. Even though it was tiring, however I had to bear with it in order to see results that God had already given me.

Also take this chance to say that this post will also be shown on Myspace and same goes to my future posts. Just being lazy to update 2 different posts of the same day of different sites...

Another Day in School...

2007-10-11T19:43:00.000+08:00

Today, I basically stayed in the school since morning studying. Nothing much had happened, just that it was so so boring! Just hope that it is over soon.

Anyways, yesterday Pastor Kelly talked about change. Indeed, my church is moving to a new location, a change in my life for the worse: army. Change comes sacrifice. I really hope that I can do my best for the change, really do not allow bad things to happen to me. In addition, I also do not want to get comfortable to all the old tradition or else i will be lacked behind from others.

Hope for a greater change in my life! My exams results will bring me to a greater place!

Inattentive Blindness...

2007-10-10T08:54:00.000+08:00

Look at the following video. Do listen carefully to the instructions given to you. The instructions are simply simple.

By the way, this is known as inattentive blindness, or also known as change blindness. Your mind would be so focused on one thing that you would not noticed that something had happened during the course of the event.
Enjoy the video! Pass around to all your friends!

Second post of the day...

2007-10-09T20:41:00.000+08:00

Today is basically a very good day for me. The morning was quite a bad one because of my Chemistry Mock Paper 2. The paper I took was the National JC prelim paper this year. The first question I saw was really shocked and puzzled for it. Then after the paper I read the answer and I saw the answer to that question: it was out of point!!! I felt I had to revise more on Chemistry.

After the Chemistry Paper, I went straight to church for weekdays prayer meeting. This prayer meeting was something special that I had. Pastor Richard mentioned something that had made me think about: does my heart follow God all the way? Does my heart being pure towards God?His bible quote is also meaningful: "Bleesed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God"(Matthew 5:8).

After the praying meeting, I went for lunch with Kelly and Serene at Plaza Singapura KFC. We had lots of food, especially serene: 2 pieces of chicken, cheese fries, mushed potato, and a drink. She ate much more than me and Kelly do: just a Zinger burger, mushed potato, and a drink. We also shared the spicy drumlets that Joyce had recommended us to try. She told us in church to try it for her to see nice or not. My conclusion: unless you really desparate for something new, otherwise, yup!

We had fellowship there for the next 4 hours. The staff there are really good, they did not chase us out. We had really good time chat about anything and everything under the sun. I really had good time with them. Just really had nice chat with them. The only price that I have to pay: to study more tomorrow! I really had to study harder!

Just keep praying that I had good results and for wisdom! I praying for miracle! Trust in the Lord!